My stressful mother

I know that my blog is not getting read. Who really care what a mother of two, always broke, and working her ass of woman's blog? My life is nuts right now. My mother has been visiting 3 weeks way too long. I love her to death don't get me wrong but she needs to go. I wish I could just send her on her way but of course money is the biggest problem.

When I agreed to let her visit I made it perfectly clear that I had no money to spare for all the crazy things she thinks she needs. I had just enough money to pay two bills and last until next payday. Well of course she figures out some way to make me spend my money that I don't have and promises she will pay me back. My daughter has not been able to go on the field trips scheduled for her summer camp because I can't afford to pay for her.

I bought enough food for the kids to last a whole month and it was gone in 2 weeks. Almost Three-Hundred dollars on food for two kids is unreal. My mom gets so bored so she keeps cooking and cooking. She went through three 24 packs of bottled water in 2 weeks. I can't buy anymore so now she is mad that she has to "boil" water. What is wrong with tap water?

Now I see why my dad drinks and smokes and gambles. He does that to keep her away and try to block out all the nagging she does. I hate the fact that if I say something she can take it and turn it against me and make it sound to everyone that I am the bad guy. She can do no wrong.

She got pissed off because my sister didn't answer the phone or called her back right away. She started banging her head on the wall and trying to break her phone in front of my son. Crying and screaming, yelling that nobody cares about her and that she wants to die. All this over a phone call. All of this in front of my 4 year old son.

She started yelling about my dad not calling her and called him all kinds of names and saying that he was stupid and drunk. Well he ended up calling about 2 hours later and she hung up on him. Why the hell would you hang up on the person you have been wanting to talk to? My sister finally called too. She was in the hospital sick and couldn't answer the phone. She didn't care she got all upset and made my sister feel guilty for not answering.

After all that she calmed down and started acting normal. That didn't last long. This morning I asked her to please not say "I misses my grand kids" . Both of my kids have a speech problem and it doesn't help if she keeps talking like that around them. My son is a copy cat. He has been messing up most of the words he already knows how to say since she has been here. After I asked her not to say that she flipped out. Yelling at me about not being a perfect parent and I don't teach my kids anything. What the hell is she talking about? Where does she get the right to tell me that I don't teach my kids anything?

I show my kids how to do anything they show interest in. Even if I have no clue what the hell I am doing I try just for them. So we can learn together. My daughter knows how to cook because of me. My son knows how to catch a football because of me.

One more week and my life can get back to a less stressful time. It won't get better but I will have one less person to stress me out. The next time she visits she won't stay with me. She can stay with my brother or at a camp. I can't go through another visit like this ever again.

What's going on......

Okay, I know it was said before that I would try and write a blog everyday. I have been super busy trying to adjust to my new job and the time schedule. I work from 3pm-11pm Monday-Friday. Don't get me wrong I am not complaining at all! I love my job and enjoy working with the people there. I can't go into detail about my position due to a privacy matter. All you need to know is that I have a job and I work with great people.

Well I know in my previous blog I had mentioned my friends passing. I have been dealing with the loss as well as I possibly can and I think I am handling things very well. My mother is here visiting while my boyfriend is out of town. Two more weeks and he'll be home and my mom will be off to Arizona. School starts very soon and I haven't even begun to school shop for the kids. There is so much going on as usual and I can't wait til there is a time of normalcy.

I was doing a search on Myspace and found some friends that I consider my adopted family. I haven't talked to them in maybe 10 years. Either way it has been a very long time and if memory serves me right that's how it's always been. I remember when I first met them, I was 6 and we lived in the same apartment complex. Then in middle school is where we met again. Hannah was showing me pictures of a girl I reminded her of and who would have known it was me. Six years after the day we met. It's funny how things like that happen. We stayed friends through middle school and most of high school and then we grew apart.

Now almost 10 years later we found each other. Fate has a funny way of bringing people in and out of your life. I feel a lot better that I found a long lost friend after losing one. Life is confusing and can be very difficult but when you surround yourself with people you love and care about it helps the process run smoothly. There is nothing better in the world as of yet then to be reunited with people you care about.

I just hope that all the people that I've met over the years that have befriended me find me so we can catch up on the time spent away from each other. Let's reunite!

Addiction

I just got news from a friend I grew up with. She called to tell me that my best friend was found dead in a hotel room back home in Virginia. It is a big shock to me since we have always been so close and I just spoke to him maybe 2 weeks ago. He was doing good getting his life back together and was planning a trip to visit me and my kids. He was my daughters godfather and she is very upset he is gone. I knew he had a drug problem and knew he was trying to get better. But the addiction was too strong for him to battle it on his own. His family didn't help him as much as they could have. I know I tried so very hard to keep him clean over the years but the addiction won and I lost my best friend.So if you know someone with an addiction no matter how minor or major it might be encourage them to get help and be supportive of them. It will be a long and hard battle but to save a life is worth the time and pain.He was loved and will be missed. I love you Danny!

Mr. Annoyance

A year went by and I only seen Mr. Annoyance every now and again skating or when we needed another player for hide and seek. Out of the blue I got a call from a friend and she invited me to a party. I didn't want to go alone and after everybody else made plans I started to get discouraged. So I called Mr. Annoyance hoping he had plans too and I would be forced to go alone. Just my luck he didn't answer the phone and I didn't leave a message.

I was happy that it worked out that way. Soon I got ready and headed over to the party. When I got there not too many people showed up. I found my friend in the living room as she introduced me to all the single guys there. I knew some of them and the girls they dated back in school. The party got boring very quickly. I beat most of the people playing cards even though I sucked at cards. My phone rang and it was Mr. Annoyance returning my call. I couldn't hear him over the loud music so I went outside. When I could hear him he asked me where I was. I told him a friends party and that was the reason I called him.

Since he didn't have a car he asked if I could pick him up. After looking in the driveway I told him my car was blocked in so I wouldn't be able to get him. I mean at this point anyone would have been more fun to hang out with instead of all these drunk guys. My friend over heard me talking and told me to take her car and pick him up then some cigarettes while I was out. So I did happy to get away.

I got to his house and he was waiting outside. He got into the front seat and smiled at me. He smelled so good and was kinda dressed up compared to his usual clothes. I told him we had to make a quick stop before we headed back. Got to the store and I was in and out like a flash which was not often. We get back to the house and more people showed up. I walked in and my friend ran to me grabbing my arm demanding to know who my guest was. I told her he is a guy I knew from skating. She was so happy thinking we were dating. I reassured her that we are only friends.

He sat down on a bar stool in the kitchen where my friend dragged me to. Everybody was doing Jello shots. Since there wasn't a lot of room I leaned against him almost sitting in his lap. I guess he took it is as flirting or something more then just getting out of the way because he wrapped his arms around me.

Luckily my phone kept ringing and it was my security friend from work. I decided since the party sucked we should drive by and see what's up. We got there and the tension between the guys got thick. They made small talk both staring at me the whole time. I didn't want to stay long; just stopped by to say hello and catch up. It started getting late and I didn't want to get into trouble with my mom so I took Mr. Annoyance home.

I parked my car and got out to say goodbye and give him a hug to thank him for keeping me company all night. Right as he was letting me go from the hug he looked down and kissed me. I was shocked and didn't know what to do. So I pulled away and looked at him like he was crazy. Then he did it again and this time I let him. It was weird to be kissing him after disliking him so much over the years. I said goodbye and drove off. When I got home I stayed up almost all night thinking about what had happened. Somehow I managed to avoid him for a few years. But after a few horrible relations he ended up back into my life. Trying to explain the thoughts going through my head is another long story......

How I met my ex husband

I was thinking about the time I met my ex husband. I was a freshmen in high school when we met. I was at the skating rink with a friend of mine when she got all goo-goo eyed over him. She told me that he was so cute and she wanted to talk to him but she was scared he would ignore her. I finally looked up to see who she was talking about and did not see what she seen in him. I mean he was okay but not as cute as she described him to be. He kept skating closer to us and every time he would turn back and smile. I encouraged her to talk to him because he seemed to be interested in her. She sheepishly laughed and refused to even make a move to talk to him.

So being the friend that I am the next time he skated past us I reach around her and smacked his butt. He looked back and laughed but continued to skate off. I got off of the skating floor and sat down by the lockers when this guy came over to talk to me. He knew me from the other skating rink and was friends with a close friend of mine so we started talking like we've known each other for years.

As the conversation went on I looked up and found my friend finally talking to her dream guy. I was so happy that I left her alone and continued talking to my new friend. The skate session was almost over and they started with the couples skate. Usually that was when we started heading for the door but my friend was out on the floor skating with her man. My new friend walked me out to the car and we talked until she came out. He asked me for my number so the next time he comes to our rink he will make sure we are there to hangout with.

My friend and I were starving so we stopped at the Taco Bell down the road. We ran into my new friend and hers too. I guess she told him that I was the one who smacked his butt. Because out of nowhere he grabbed mine. I jerked back and yelled at him for touching me. He thought it was funny and took off so I ran him down and punched him in the arm. I threatened him and my new friend broke us up. I got in the car and we started heading home after he got my friends phone number.

A few days later I got a phone call from an unknown number. It was Mr. Annoyance he got my number from my friend. That traitor I thought. How could she do that to me when she knew I couldn't stand him. He called to ask me if we planned on going skating that night. I told him that my friend was in trouble and she was usually my ride. But I might end up going with somebody else. He sounded almost excited at that idea. I hung up and told myself I wasn't going. Before my mind could be made up my phone rang and it was my skating partner. He wanted to go skating over there and asked if I wanted to ride with him.

I felt better that I was going with a guy instead of a girl so I started to get ready. He picked me up and asked me why I seemed tense. I told him what happened last time and he laughed but told me not to worry cause I would be too busy skating with him and working on some new moves. Busy wasn't even close. I was always tired after skating with him.

I walked in first and headed over to my usual locker. Before I could even open my bag I heard from behind me "I knew you couldn't stay away". I wanted to scream but kept my cool and turned around to see my new friend.I sighed with relief he tried calling me but my ringer was turned off. He gave me a hug and I introduced him to my partner. We all got on the floor and skated together. My partner asked if he was the one bothering me I told him no and then speaking of the annoyance he skated right behind me and gave me a tight hug. I pushed him off and wrapped my partners arms around me. Hoping he would think that he was my boyfriend.

Everyone knew he wasn't but maybe he would be the one to believe it. I kept close to my partner all night. Never wanting to give him the chance to talk to me. Then it was men skate so I had to get off the floor. My partner and my new friend skated together while I watched. Then it happened the annoyance came to talk to me. He asked me why I was being so mean. I told him that he was aggravating and it wasn't right that he kept messing with me when my friend liked him so much.

He told me that he thought she was nice but he wanted talk to me the whole time. At this point I knew that like every guy at the rinks when one girl doesn't work out the way you want it; go for her friend. I was not going to be in that situation. Besides I didn't like him and my new friend and I were sort of getting to know each other. But that didn't seem to bother him one bit and it made him welcome the competition.

Both my new friend and partner came to my rescue and then the annoyance asked if he could skate with us. I laughed thinking he couldn't keep up with the steps. My partner said he didn't mind and we hit the floor. I was skating behind my partner and the annoyance behind me and my new friend was last. The annoyance almost tripped me trying to keep rhythm so my partner pushed me in front. We skated two songs then slowed down.

I got off the floor since it was nearing the end of the night but before I could get off the floor Mr. Annoyance asked to skate couples. I told him that I don't skate couples. My partner heard me and grabbed me by the waist and pushed me towards the floor holding very close to him. He had a huge smile on his face and whispered to me that he was staring at us skating. I put my head on his shoulder as we skated trying not to laugh every time we past him standing by the wall watching.

The song ended and I started for the lockers when my new friend grabbed me and pushed me back to the floor. I laughed again because this time he got mad and walked out. When we got out to the parking lot he was standing on my side of the truck waiting for me. My partner was inside talking to the DJ and gave me the keys. I walked up and he asked if we could talk. I told him he has until my partner got there and then we were leaving. He made it quick and told me that he liked me the first day he seen me and the only reason he asked for my friends phone number was so he could ask her about me.

I was shocked that he was telling me all of this and told him that I wasn't interested in him. He looked at me weird and asked if my partner was really my boyfriend. I laughed and told him no he was just a really good friend. Then he hurried to ask if I had a boyfriend. I took a minute and told him that ten minutes ago I didn't but my new friend and I just started dating that night. Oh, he asked you out while you were skating couples? Yes I replied with a smile on my face.

He dropped his head and told me he was happy for me and asked if we could be friends. I told him we could try but I wasn't going to make any promises. He hugged me goodnight and I got in the truck. My partner got in and we headed home. He laughed and said two guys in one night. I laughed and said three. He said who was the third? I told him silly you don't remember we were pretending to be dating. We both laughed at my not so convincing plan. He told me if I were older then maybe we could have worked something out. I didn't say anything else as he pulled up in front of my house. I reached over and gave him a hug and thanked him for driving me.

I got to my room and I had three missed calls from Mr. Annoyance. I ignored it and jumped into bed thinking about what my partner said. But that is a whole other story. Many years later Mr. Annoyance and I got married. There will be more stories on how this progressed over the years.

ER Hell

My brother got burned from a grease fire yesterday. I took him to the ER at the University Medical Center (UMC) here in Lafayette Louisiana. It only took 45 minutes for him to finish with the triage nurse and another 15 for them to take him into the acute care. I waited in the waiting room about an hour and the woman sitting across from me was obviously in pain and she asked me how long I've been waiting. I told her maybe an hour or so. She told me to get comfortable cause she had been there since 8am. She started telling me her symptoms. She had sharp pains in her stomach and near her right side of her lower back. A few minutes later she took off towards the restroom and didn't come back. I hope she got called since it was almost 5pm. This is amazing to me that 20 people or so here have been waiting here to be seen for at least 4 hours. It is a very sad day when people in need of medical attention have to suffer longer because they can't afford health insurance. What is the world coming to? I am so glad that I have insurance.

Christina Gimpel

I was thinking about a dear friend of mine that I lost at a very early age. I know I mentioned names would not be addressed but Christina Gimpel made such an impact on my life that I have to show how much I appreciate her. We were in the sixth grade together at C. Alton Lindsay Middle School in Hampton, Virginia. Christina sat down next to me in a over sized desk. She had fire red hair and was so tiny. Christina always had on a large wind breaker jacket that must have belonged to her dad since it was so big on her. She had the biggest smile and a very small voice that fit her size. But when she wanted to be heard you would hear her....lol.

She was the first person to talk to me and from there we became best friends. We walked to all of our classes together, sat next to each other at lunch and sometimes shared a locker. We had a friendship like most middle school girls did. Always talked about boys, music, clothes and what we had planned for the weekends. School went by so fast and it was already winter break. Christina got sick over winter break and missed a few days of school when it reopened. I asked her if there was anything wrong and she didn't want to tell me but I knew it was something big. So I told her that it's okay if she didn't want to tell me and she could when she was ready. She finally told me and made me promised I wouldn't say anything to anyone at school. I promised. Christina told me she had Cystic Fibrosis and that her doctor told her that it's not looking too good. Her symptoms gotten worse and the breathing therapy she did at home is only helping ease the discomfort.

When she returned to school the weather started to warm up and it got easier for her to breathe and it helped me from being the "Mother Bird". Since I knew she was sick and it was hard enough on her. I tried to make school bearable so I can see her and she could have a sense of an ordinary life without all the pain. Spring break was coming up and Christina and I made plans to hangout and spend Easter Sunday together at church.

Easter Sunday I got a phone call early in the morning. It was a girl in my class that Christina and I made plans with to meet at church. She called to tell me that Christina had passed away earlier that morning. I didn't believe her so I called her house and the line was busy. I hung up hoping she was trying to call me. I waited about twenty minutes and the phone rang. It was my best friend Danny. He called and told me he just got off the phone with Christina's mother and the rumor was true. I dropped the phone and started crying. My best friend died. She was so young and the best person I have ever met.

The funeral was so hard for me but I had to be strong for Christina's family and my classmates. The mother bird instinct kicked back in. I tried not to cry and hugged anyone who was crying telling them that it will be okay and that she is in a safer place now. Hoping that I was listening to myself and believed what I was saying. Christina's mother found me and gave me a tight hug and told me that I was a very good friend and that she was thankful Christina had someone like me in her life. The tears came rushing out and I almost fell to my knees.

Christina Gimpel was the very best friend that I ever had and I kept my promise! My son Christopher was named after you. Your life will never be forgotten and our friendship will be as strong at it was when we meet again. I love you and miss you so much!

Your friend always,
Angela Cherry